Learning to say no to yourself
I tried but failed. The Deepstriker ain't going to get done by February. It is just not possible. Realistically speaking, I need at least another six months or more to finish this monster. Otherwise, I'll be cutting back on details and compromising stuff if I continued.
And the moment I made up my mind, I could feel a load off my shoulders. As I slumped on my coach, it suddenly dawned on me why did I get into this hobby in the first place? Well, you tend to ask yourself this question every now and then.
I picked up this hobby because of my interest in mechas. And also for relaxation. When you are new and your builds are mainly OOBs, there is no expectations, no pressure. But if you're in this for more than a decade, involving in projects and engaging with other modelers is a daily affair. Every kit you build is always under scrutiny. Every word you said is picked up, analysed, dissected and re-interpreted. You are misrepresented most often than not.
Others crave for the limelight, I shun it. I'm just not your average showbiz guy, or a marketing tool or even a spokesman. These things take the hobby away, depletes my energy, negates me.
Now, the thought of lazing on my coach with a cup of hot coffee and a good book in hand is more tempting than tolling away at my worktable. Even counting stash is tiring.
Burnout is imminent if one loses sight of why one is in this hobby in the first place. Now, it's a matter of taking a step back from that crazy pace and wrestle back control. Get a feel of things once again. It's alright to fail but it's wrong to give up.
...Good morning everyone, fellow modelers and readers...
